It Can't Rain All the Time

In the past month, I've parted ways with my dear boyfriend of 1+ year (and more years of friendship) for reasons beyond my control, was layed off by my job which I love for reasons that are entirely unrelated to me (financial), and received news that the car I have been driving for the past 2 years is not much longer for these roads (catalytic converter is failing).

This is no plea for pity. Merely an acknowledgment that a lot is moving in my life right now. And I'm not crying much, either. I have been a little (unconsciously) sharp around the tongue, though I'm trying to notice and curb it. Frustration that a little moshing could cure. Though I haven't been doing that this year, nor drinking, nor anything else self-destructive.

This year has been real in all the most powerful ways. Real decisions (big decisions) and integrity going into their motives, and a lot of learning on my part, as well as a great calming of spirit. I have my fire, believe me. I am learning to analyze better before using it, however. Mostly, what I find interesting, is that I desire to feel safe. The risks I take are more personal than destructive, less obvious, and less risky. They have real motivation, such as to learn a new skill or put energy into a healthy friendship (both risks which are initially hard to take).

Without becoming boring at all, I'm growing up. :)

Beautiful Creative Rings, with Conscience

A good friend of mine is engagement ring-shopping. I showed her this site:

http://greenkarat.com/index.asp

Eco-friendly wedding jewelry. For the person who's fed up with diamonds and department store's over-charging. Sounds like the foundation for a healthy relationship, to me.