"I ain't even mad cuz..."

My favorite phrase, currently, at least as phrases from the hip-hop and rap world go.... is the title of this post.

"I ain't even mad."

Let's dissect. First of all, you're not mad. But rather than simply being 'not mad', you're not even mad. There's a reason why you could be mad, and yet, you are not. Why not? Because something better exists. And as long as this better thing exists, you have no reason in the world to be even slightly upset.

Does this make sense to you? Perhaps some examples will help.

"This girl said she wasn't interested, and she was so harsh. but I ain't even mad cuz she's not as cute as the girl i'm taking out to dinner next week."

See? No worries there. girl A is easily replaced by girl B, who is also much better.
Or even,

"My girl said she doesn't want to stay the night, but I ain't even mad cuz she just treats me so nice, I know it won't be forever."

"I ain't even mad" indicates a person who is wise enough to recognize value and prioritize desires based on that value. And whom is unfazed by minor inconveniences because they realize the quality of their life is really good and untarnished remains that positive belief.

¡A mi salud!

I'm drinking tea made with Thyme, Parsley, Marjoram, Bay leaf, and little bits of garlic powder and licorice root. And of course, honey. It's not only delicious, but healthy and beneficial.

And, I made it myself.

Oh, um, happy new year!

how I do Christmas

This is Exactly how I do Christmas. With a lovely tree, tasty candycane, and vampire gingerbread man.



"i was surprised he was so tasty, and then i realized he wasn't bleeding at all, it was me bleeding!"

Christmas Shopping

I dreamt last night that I went Christmas shopping. wrapping (invisible) presents tonight is the nightmare.

fun christmas eve party tonight. at a house that i consider home in many ways. it houses people i love, people i know visit there, i'm welcome for dinner, i'm welcome to sleep in a particular room, i take care of a kid who lives there, i admire and look up to parents who live there. i fill up the brita after i pour my water. i've showered there. they love me. it was so fun.

i'm tired. i was serious about the christmas shopping. it wasn't the only shopping i did, but i really thought i'd gotten my mom something and my dad something extra and i did not.... i'd like to make them happy. i hope that i figure out how to do this gracefully.

My integrity's intact, it's just trendier...

I succumbed. I became, in a moment of weakness, part of 'my generation' of twitterers.

I also began watching 'Buffy'. both of these abnormalities were introduced into my sphere by family.

But isn't he cute?




He is. that's all there is to it.

Sleeping Helps

Thought I'd share... I'd been having trouble sleeping, post-concussion and after Nick's death. And I found this online:
http://www.tylenol.com/page.jhtml?id=tylenol/getreadyforbed/getready4bed.inc

It's pretty much genius. an interactive guide to helping you figure out a sleep schedule. I tried it yesterday by
*Going outside when I woke up naturally, enjoying the late morning light
*ate breakfast
*did some errands which had been pressing on me
*I don't drink caffeine
*I looked for a job during the day, not the night
*made a list of stuff to do, to get it off my mind
*ate dinner 2 hrs before bedtime
*Got off the computer at 10:45
*Listened to a book on tape with low light, while knitting
*drank tea with milk, didn't really eat much of a snack. just a mini-musketeer bar
*Was probably lights out at like... 12:30am? that's unusual for me

I feel amazing. I felt amazing when I woke up. And I still feel amazing. So I'm doing the same thing again today!



p.s. I did let the cat sleep in my room, and must admit, she woke up me several times. But it was a worthy sacrifice in order to wake up to her cuddling into my arms so that both of them were around her. *Love*