Christmas Shopping

I dreamt last night that I went Christmas shopping. wrapping (invisible) presents tonight is the nightmare.

fun christmas eve party tonight. at a house that i consider home in many ways. it houses people i love, people i know visit there, i'm welcome for dinner, i'm welcome to sleep in a particular room, i take care of a kid who lives there, i admire and look up to parents who live there. i fill up the brita after i pour my water. i've showered there. they love me. it was so fun.

i'm tired. i was serious about the christmas shopping. it wasn't the only shopping i did, but i really thought i'd gotten my mom something and my dad something extra and i did not.... i'd like to make them happy. i hope that i figure out how to do this gracefully.

My integrity's intact, it's just trendier...

I succumbed. I became, in a moment of weakness, part of 'my generation' of twitterers.

I also began watching 'Buffy'. both of these abnormalities were introduced into my sphere by family.

But isn't he cute?




He is. that's all there is to it.

Sleeping Helps

Thought I'd share... I'd been having trouble sleeping, post-concussion and after Nick's death. And I found this online:
http://www.tylenol.com/page.jhtml?id=tylenol/getreadyforbed/getready4bed.inc

It's pretty much genius. an interactive guide to helping you figure out a sleep schedule. I tried it yesterday by
*Going outside when I woke up naturally, enjoying the late morning light
*ate breakfast
*did some errands which had been pressing on me
*I don't drink caffeine
*I looked for a job during the day, not the night
*made a list of stuff to do, to get it off my mind
*ate dinner 2 hrs before bedtime
*Got off the computer at 10:45
*Listened to a book on tape with low light, while knitting
*drank tea with milk, didn't really eat much of a snack. just a mini-musketeer bar
*Was probably lights out at like... 12:30am? that's unusual for me

I feel amazing. I felt amazing when I woke up. And I still feel amazing. So I'm doing the same thing again today!



p.s. I did let the cat sleep in my room, and must admit, she woke up me several times. But it was a worthy sacrifice in order to wake up to her cuddling into my arms so that both of them were around her. *Love*

To My Friends

Friends make you feel less alone and more alive. They know that
sometimes you need them, not just want them. A friend can look at
you and see you're in no condition to drive home, whether you're
sleepy, drunk, or sad, and offer you a place to sleep for the
night. And make you an honored guest, rather than a crasher.

It doesn't need to be a long and involved list. Friendship is not
simple, and for that very reason, its complexity, it is
undefinable objectively. Friendship is defined subjectively, per
each relationship. And even those change over time.

Although there are many people this definition (so loosely writ)
applies to for me, I dedicate this sentiment particularly to Nick Tate.
He made sure I had a safe walk home, or a ride or a place to sleep.
And when I did the same for him, I made omelettes. He sought me
out when I was lurking somewhere feeling depressed and brought
me back; to myself, to the world, to the love felt by friends.
Love goes uncelebrated too often. My friends- you seriously rock.

And so, the sentiment is dedicated to you all. Everyone listed,
and so many more.

Animated guitar-bass-harp

http://animusic.com/

Amazing.... this instrument is something beautiful, out of imaginations galoreee

and this post, inelegant, is mostly to remind myself of it!

And I should -not- be an art teacher because?

There is absolutely no way to capture the beauty and reality of a physical three-dimensional form if drawing from a photograph. You can draw every shadow and crease and yet if you never saw the object in that exact spot, at that time, position, with that lighting, you will fail to accurately represent its true being.

Just a thought

Goatman Hollow

So, once again it is OCTOBER. the most wonderful time of the year.

GOATMAN HOLLOW

is the haunted house I 'haunt' every Friday and Saturday night. I know only 3 people read this, but if each of those 3 brings their roommates, best friends, and significant other to squeeze the hand/butt of through the haunt, you'll totally make it worth my while posting this entry! <3>

http://www.goatmanhollow.com ONLY USING INTERNET EXPLORER

I don't know why. T3kn0L0-g f41L

EDIT: All fixed URL!!!